X'mas Party

Thanks Siew Jing for the awesome X'mas Party. 

and... It would be a memorable night for me. 

Since we are going to separate for internship after two months.

So....It could be the last gathering with Accounting classmates. 

We prepared the foods, played games, exchanged presentssss and drinksssssssss together. 

definitely enjoyed that night. :)

28th Dec

You can close your eyes to the things that you do not want to see 

but.....

 you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.     

Relationship is so fragile. 

In fact,

I couldn't be your spare tyre. 

I don't wish to be. 

sometimes I just couldn't figured out how many times do I need to get hurt for me to know it's time to let go.

One day, I finally realized.

Everything happens for a reason.

My intuition is never wrong.

so.......

what am I supposed to do...? 

I don't want to get hurt anymore.

Sorry.

Take care yourself. 

and...

I hope you are happy now.

Last but not least,

You will always have a special place in my heart.

: )

Lovely December

Yeahhhhhhh. I am officially finished with mid-term exam period!!!

That's why I have been abandoned my blog for a few weeks.due to my effort for my exam...

Obviously, I 'm not that clever. I don't have a genius brain. but I have made and earnest effort to improve my academic result. I did. practice makes perfect   :)

and I straight away backed hometown after the last paper-International Accounting.

This paper is seriously sucks. I did not get fully prepared due to the meteor rain session with fellow friendsssss.

Think positive !!!! at least I still know how to do write ........zzz

God bless .praying hard for all my efforts !!!

This candies will definitely pray for me. Thanks sweetie <3 

After the awful exam period, there is another hectic week to go. with a tons of assignments. 

This emotion could expressed my mood exactly--------'T^T'

K la. don't write too much about assignments or exams.

getting closer with new friends recently. lol actually we are classmate since almost 3 years ago. 

but we only knew each other after 3 years. at least we knew is it...?

seriously like the feeling of getting new friends during these embarrassing age.   :)

Movie with classmate.

 BBQ plaza & movie with them

Yea, u know that everything is just so happening for this semester!!!
Something I still couldn't believe that we actually made it...!!!such as broga hill..........
Yeah, chien wah u finally moved on ...!!! congrats LOL

Lovely Zing with Lovely sunrise. <3 wahaha

Lovely Aqiya B'day party <3   X'mas edition handmade card with Lovely my socks.wahaha

Bestie Weekang B'day celebration after Aqiya 's party. 

Although there was a bit rush since we were having exam at that time. 

we are full of sincere.............<3

At the end, I 'd like to give a best ending. with my handmade Lovely Socks.wahahahaaaaaaa 

Wish all my friends have a holly jolly Christmas in advance !!! <3

Good night. byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!  : )

:)

Good day to u.

There are so many things that can make you happy. 

Don't focus too much on things that make you sad.  

Cheersss all my dear friends  :))))

很想写一写最近的生活。

记录一些，很深刻很难忘的事。

可是又，不想让太多人懂。

不想解释太多。

.............

因為在你掙扎難受的時候，其實他比你更掙扎更難受。

因為在你傷心流淚的時候，其實他比你流的淚更多。

請不要怪他為什麼可以眼白白看著你受苦。

他不是變態到以別人的痛苦為樂，他只是很努力地忍著不去伸出援手。

因為他知道，若他再一次伸出手來，會令大家跌入另一個更深不見底的漩渦。

真的，不要去怪罪一個真心為你而放手的人。

這種狠心，絕對不是美其名的那種。

上天不要再跟我开玩笑了，好吗？ 

recently updated

Thank god.
I 'm fine. : )

That 's all for my recently updated.

离歌。

我从来，从来都没有过那么酸的感觉。
也以为这种很酸的感觉，是因为看了那些年，我们一起追的女孩后，久久不能平复的心情。
我真的以为，它还存在我心里。


结果...
昨天晚上，当我明白原因后。
真的， 那种酸的感觉已经没有办法用言语来形容了。


酸到......潸然泪下。
连自己，都觉得 怎么那么可笑。










一开始我只相信，伟大的是感情。
到最后我无力看清，强悍的是命运。










:')

E

I know that I can't take one more step towards you.

so,don't be afraid to stand alone. you can do it  : )

..........















When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile.

Oh, it 's November already. gonna back to December again.
Then, 2012 is coming soon. judgement day ?


Life is like pictures. You can look back on the moments, but you can never recapture them.

No matter how far apart we are, we will always be together. That 's so called FAMILY. 
Dad, I love you. please do take care yourself okay.  
There are thousand words I wanna say but it's impossible to spit them out.



hmm...Even if we can't be together in the end, I'm still glad that you were a part of my life. Seriously, thanks for giving this chance to grow up. thanks for everything that you have done for me. 
I 'll never forget........
The way you made me laugh. 
The way you made me smile. 
The feelings we shared.


I 'm so happy at this moment. 

我们曾经那么深爱过对方，就算没有在一起，也不要变成陌生人，好吗？ 就当好朋友。

fragile.

我一直以为，我还喜欢着，我突然发现，原来住在我心里的，是回忆中的他，而我——忘不掉的是我对他付出的感情，而不是他。


 有时候命运就是爱作弄人。

你抓得越紧，他就离你越远。

当你想通了，渐渐放开后，他又出现了。


然而，他的一言一语，就算是不经意的几行字都足以让你的心很痛很痛。


然后，你花了很长的时间整理好的情绪，又乱了。






揚起了灰塵　回憶裡一場夢　
那照片裡的人　瞳孔曾住著我　
闔上了過往　夢境活成河流　
已滋潤了身旁　真實中的脈搏　

生命來到窗前　不吭一聲　拎走了我們　
誰為情所困　誰為愛犧牲　誰比誰深刻　

當時奮不顧身伸出我的手　
看見了輪廓就當作宇宙　
甜美的習慣變成生活　才瞭解了什麼　

如今故事發展成就一個我　
學會了生活能享受寂寞　
劇烈的語言變成溫柔　又帶來了什麼　

若是不曾走過　怎麼懂




其实，我也不知道自己要的是什么。 一个月后，三个月后，剩下我一个人的时候，怎么办。


昨天，姐姐说，谢谢上天给了我一个那么好的妹妹。


姐姐，我好想你。 

此刻，真的好脆弱。

The longest msg ever

Every girl needs a good guy to help her laugh when she thinks she'll never smile again.
and u did. 




: )

24 Oct

It has been a week without any stress to face reality.
Attended two awesome b'day party with a bunch of friends. although i was not really familiar with anyone of them except my room & housemate. still had fun with them.  :D

And last night, I just made a big decision in my life.
nothing much feeling anymore. neutral and peace.
And daddy is going to plan for his retired fund.
everyone is seeking for the higher achievement but opportunity may knock only once. that 's why we should appreciate it right.
He is a responsible employee definitely. he even go for the site every Sunday or public holiday in order to supervise and make sure the production is still in process. I admire his attitude towards his work. he never think to slack off.Never.

The days where I forget you exist are the best days for me.

The sooner, the better :)

._.

nice birthday celebration ever.

happy birthday ! :)

my secret recipe

 

 

 

 

 

我是一个完美主义者。

可是我并不是一个完美的人。

我只能尽量把每件事我看重的事做得尽善尽美。

在妈妈的呵护下，从前的我是一个连煎蛋都不会的女生。

真没想到今天的我也可以煮出三菜一汤。

而且，真的，不错好吃！不是我要自夸。 哈哈哈哈 赖你丫回来后我的自信也开始慢慢暴登了 ._.

要不是因为有室友的陪伴，我们也不会从开始玩家家酒到后来越煮越有默契。

到后来是吃腻了楼下的食物，多油，多盐，多味精。 

为了健康着想，每一次煮菜都坚持少盐，少油，无味精。

但是呢，我以后绝对不是想当个黄脸婆在家煮饭洗衣看孩子！ 

我不会是这一类型的女人。

只想好好地过生活，不管什么，只要有兴趣都想学一学。 

我的游泳课，下个sem再见！

21

我一直纠结在一段没有无法回去的感情里。

不管走到哪里,不管我说我放下了,我心里还是有那么一点点的期待.

然而,这个假期里,我发现了好多好多我还要做的事。

一共去了6次医院,见了3个医生,花了我三百多块

谢天谢地,不是什么大病.只要好起来,我不怕.

我答应了自己,一定不能再浪费自己的生命,做没有意义的事.

我快好了. 

可是人生就是不停的战斗啊!

上天又给了我一个很重大的任务让我成为你的天使,帮助你.

 平时很不耐烦的我,有一天也变得很耐烦,很耐心,因为为了心爱的人,一切都是值得的.

只要能帮到你.

我们一家人, 都有一个共同点.好像都一样有着某种相似的缺点还是优点.

心太软.

我们都很清楚,却还是被伤害了.

不是要把自己说得有多好.真的.

因为我觉得,我其实是一个很善良的人.可是我不会去做一些讨好人家的事,我的善良是 我不会恨那些伤害我的人,我反而还让人家有机会继续伤害我. 我一直很努力为了自己而活, 然而我却一直都是为了别人而活. 去旅行的时候,我买了很多喜欢的东西,到最后我都把它送给别人. 我自己也没留着. 我做很多事都是为了别人,很少为自己想想我心里是不是真的愿意. 我很在意别人的感受,很担心别人是不是好过,  却忽略了太多太多自己的感受. 就算我不想,不愿意, 在很多时候,如果别人开心,我还是会勉强自己. 虽然 每一次 我都说得很潇洒. 爸爸这样,姐姐这样. 妈妈一直都很单纯快乐地 弟弟的心理那份善良,我还是深深感觉得到.

上天会疼惜善良的人,对吗?

回过神来.

加油!我一定会永远永远支持你. 也会帮助你. 

因为家人的爱,是永远不离不弃的.

我们很多时候是活给别人看的，也在盯着别人是怎么活的。于是，我们给自己戴上了面具，哪怕心里很苦很累，面

具上镶嵌的依旧是永恒的笑容；我们看到别人脸上的笑意，总是怀疑他们也戴上了面具。其实，幸福是自己的，永

远不要拿别人来做参照，别人做不了你，他怎么知道你走过的路，你心中的乐与苦...

来不及许愿的流星，再怎么美丽也只是曾经

bittersweet

i have slept a very short nap but it was soooooooooooo satisfied for me.after eaten some medicines.
Guess what? I went for pandai hospital twice dy! but the doctor was not available at that time & time not matched. Finally, i was able to consult the doctor by this morning. I was so brave by took cab to hospital alone. actually, I was afraid and kinda nervoussssssss. but i can't!!! have to act to be calm. because I know that there are a lots of friends & family still worrying about me. I need a healthy life.stay strong, be tough. All the best  =)

I 'm not afraid !

如果让我过得了这一劫，相信我，明天以后我一定会更珍惜我的生命，更懂得照顾好自己，更努力地生活，更珍惜我身边所有的人和事。










真的，如果这一切都还来得及，我一定不会食言。 

...

爱了三四年的人。
你以为你不会忘了。
你信誓旦旦地说要等他很久。
直到有一天遇到了一个人，
和当初对他一样的心动。
然后你才发现，
你其实不是那么爱他了，
你爱的只是回忆，
还有不甘心失去。
至于三四年的等待，
不过是因为还没遇到更爱的。
于是你也要感谢他，
三四年来一直做你的信仰，
让你还不至于灰心或者堕落。
最后你也会带着祝福，
开始你新的恋情了。
我们像蜕变了一样，
而他不过是陪你青春过。


well,this is so called- the ugly truth.

happy foreveralone mid-autumn festival

话说，这是一个凄惨的中秋节。

本来不觉得有那么的惨，直到看到很多很多人都在玩蜡烛提灯笼，而我就在房间切了那可爱的小叮当月饼，也泡了茶，电脑还播着‘但愿人长久’。

但是又如何，不管那月饼有多么可爱，那茶又多么香浓，那首歌有多么动人。

没有人分享，幸福就只剩一半。

还带了灯笼回了叻，结果都没有派上用场。 ~.~

结果叻，我一边看one piece，一边吃月饼，品尝我的铁观音，享受孤独！

而且还收到一个MMS ，蜡烛的照片，真是‘有心了’！！！

心里极度不平衡中 =________________________=

非常不像我写的一篇............奇怪的是，是我没有不开心。

还好，我真的还好。

只是很想玩蜡烛罢了！

最近才研究到我女友的一个color tone，好soft喔~

哈哈哈

happy foreveralone mid-autumn festival!

Thanks

Oh happy 21st birthday to myself. I got a few of awesome celebration from bunch of friends & beloved family!
everything that happened to me is just too hard to express by words.
I felt grad on these few days.
Thanks for giving me a lots of surprisessssss! seriously, I couldn't  imagine you guys can be so creative !thumbs up <3

Thanks for everything that you all have done for me. deeply appreciated  ._.
Thanks for coming. Thanks for every wishes from you all ❤

Oh ya

Halo.I feel better now. haha  =)
My study mood, please turn on as soon as possible okay <
since the lovely final exam is approaching........ lol

Friendship isn’t a big thing – it’s a million little things!
Thanks for giving me a lot of warmth when I need you, you & you. 
highly appreciate .... !


All right, wake me up when September ends! I hope to skip this month badly :P

*Avatar version.

心中的呐喊

期待很久要回去的前一个小时，心中突然满满的不舍。
这一次离开，有和之前不同的含义。

有时候，同样的一件事情，我们可以去安慰别人，却说服不了自己。










我希望，下一次回来会是带着很愉快的心情 =）

=）

我的部落格很悲伤。
悲伤到我自己不敢回来看。
然后我不得不写新的，来盖掉那些伤心的。
这种感觉真的.........很可悲。

我要振作起来，重新出发。
我会好的，我保证。

我不喜欢september，因为今年的生日，我不想过。
不能活在回忆里，我决定了不再执着下去。




哪怕是你的一点点鼓励，我都会铭记在心。

新生活，我来了。 =）

bye

I'm tired of trying.

bye.

不准哭

我们只不过是两个都害怕寂寞的人。

所以在对方很寂寞的时候，我们出现，填补了那些寂寞。

我们不需要对方。

但有时候又会想念对方。

但只要其中一方身边有朋友的时候，另一方就会消失，不会打扰，也不敢。

我们习惯了这样的相处方式。

虽然很多时候，我还是很努力、很努力地想让自己一个人的时候，没有人陪的时候，快乐起来。

但是最后，仍然败给了寂寞。 

每一次不想打扰，到最后都忍不住打扰。

每一次的忍不住打扰，到最后都是失望的结束。

属于你的，不要轻易言弃，不要让记忆中有太多遗憾和悔恨；

和你无缘的，不要盲目追求，不要随意丢弃你的自信与尊严。

 我知道这样不好 也知道你的爱只能 那么少 我只有不停的要 要到你想逃

 

 你逃走后，我才知道，我一个人也可以很好。

所以，不要再给我一些突如其来的关心了。

谢谢你。

top secret!

I wanna share something with u guys.  =P

http://cforum.cari.com.my/viewthread.php?tid=2477202&extra=page%3D2&page=1

：‘）

刚才跟爸爸去吃午餐的时候，有一个老阿嫲拿着几包香料走过来问我们要不要买。
我们摇了摇头，于是她就走开了。
后来爸爸问，那个阿嫲有没有像我们家的阿嫲那么老了？
我说： 我们的阿嫲比较年轻一些。
爸爸说那么老了还要出来卖东西很可怜的。

后来爸爸拿了五块钱，叫我拿去给她。
然后她就要拿一些东西给我们，爸爸也拒绝了。

不知道为什么，那一刻，我是热泪盈眶的。

帮助别人真的不需要让全世界都知道。
看那阿嫲笑得多么开心，心里的满足感真的，非笔墨能形容的。
有时候，我看到很多很可怜的人，很想帮助他们，可是我们家也不是那种很富有的家庭。
所以多半都只是，想。没有行动。

后来我们离开了，那个阿嫲还挥手跟我们拜拜。

我要表达的不是炫耀了我们做了善事，而是我真的深深地觉得，我有一个很善良的爸爸。

let it be

等待不苦 苦的是 沒有希望的等待。

 

 大概忘了吧。

说好的lok lok呢？

信任就像橡皮擦，在一次一次的错误中慢慢损耗变小。

dream

I dreamt of you last night.


and the next day, i saw a msg when i woke up.




'wan an.i miss u'












Means what?


sometimes, dream might come true. 

but it is still a dream.



so near, yet so far.











 No matter what happened, I am not afraid to stand alone anymore.



 














Today is my lunar birthday, so...........
happy birthday to myself .

hmm

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
I 'm wondering.....what 's wrong with my stomach?
Yesterday I was suffering gastric pain for a whole day after I reached Jb.
and I lost my big ribbon as well.
what the hell.
Today, I did not feel any pain but......
I can feel that something wrong inside.

I 'm afraid...............and I had promised MYSELF!
Therefore,I 'll eat breakfast, lunch & dinner punctually.







哭的时候没人哄，我学会了坚强..
怕的时候没人陪，我学会了勇敢..
烦的时候没人问，我学会了承受..
累的时候没人可以依靠，我学会了自立..



加油 ！

Disappointed

在某些时候，

有些人，

他们会帮你，是因为他们可以从中获得些什么。

而不是真心地，想要扶你一把。



这也许就是我们所谓的现实。

有些事情，不谈是个结，谈开了是个疤。

是我把一切都想得太好了，自取其辱。











加油，好吗？

buck up!

Seriously, I need more than 24 hours in a day!!!
so that I can managed to accomplish every task on time.

sigh. I know that Time Management is soooooooo important.
somehow these few weeks I couldn't manage it well.
wasted a lot of times for......some useless stuff...!#$%^&*()
No..! I 'm gonna control over the time which spent on everything so that I can increase my productivity.
and efficiency as well huh!

I must achieve my goal, but I feel damn tired right now.
helpless  :'(
God bless me!




When letting go becomes easier than holding on, its time to walk away.

just a murmur

龚诗嘉在一首歌里唱到： ‘MSN上太多的路人甲 偶尔你也该上来说说话’。
有时候，还会怀念曾经某个人，一直都在线上的那个人。







然后想着想着，我眼眶竟然红了。



也还真的没想到，我还是一样有血有泪。
偶尔会难过、会哭，但生活还是过得不错。
再也没有觉得，这样也没什么不好。
心情轻松多了，自由也跟着多了。






不在也好，那也不会常常想起很多事。
只是，你那张profile picture也太显眼了吧？
而且还是我拍的   =_______=
结果搞到我facebook都不敢再appear online了。
不然一上线就是...
虽然说，我的心已经可以平静到对任何人的感觉都停留在一个平衡点。
不多、不少，不刚也不好。
但是回忆还真是个可以让我的心情在上一秒从天堂到下一秒直接滑落到地狱的。



但是渐渐的，我已经习惯现在的生活了。

所以，再见了。  :')

Tears are a very expensive liquid. Know why? 

Because they are the only liquid that shows the real meaning of pain. 

meaningful lyric❤

The two hardest things to say in life are 'hello' for the first time and 'goodbye' for the last.

小分享

我喝着和阿冰一起煲的番薯汤，然后一直傻笑着。

很懊恼！为什么我的番薯汤是黑色的？！

番薯一削皮马上变黑！我以前从来没有发现过这件事。
然后我google了一下，发现....
番薯一碰到空气就会被氧化然后就变黑了。
事发不到五秒钟。

囧



我突然好佩服妈妈煲的番薯汤喔。
因为番薯总是黄色的。


哈哈

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从很久很久以前，我就爱上mini cooper了。

我很喜欢这辆车，有点可爱，有点sporty, 也很有型。

这就是我的dream car ❤

重点来了，那就是......

今天去朋友party，来载我的人，驾了这辆车来载我！！！

虽然没有很惊讶.......可是真的真的很开心！

这是第一次，我坐上这辆车。

我一上车，我朋友就说：‘哎呀另外一辆车被妈妈驾去了我才驾这辆的啦！’

虽然我懂，也许、也许不是。

是因为我昨天说的话。

不管怎样，谢谢。

有一天，我也要凭自己的能力，买一辆  ：）

今晚真的很开心，派对上和老同学叙叙旧。

聊天，说话，赌博，笑得我肚子超痛.....大概也是因为我笑点低。

可是真的，一切都很好。

主人，生日快乐！希望你会喜欢那个香水 ：）

A news made my day

I have been waiting for soooooooooooooooo long..
finally my friend has approached the swimming coach and asked for the details about learning session.
I 'm sooooooooooooo excited and looking forward to learn swimming!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't tell you how much I am excited about this!
I 'm gonna fulfil my childhood dream ❤
hope it won't be too late. I 'm so god damn excited lar woohooooo :D

As you know, I just finished all the midterm paper but I did not feel any joy after this.
It is because I know that I did not put all my effort to the midterm. why? I couldn't answer you.
I have no eyes to see my result.........come on,motivation!where are you huh please follow me ....always!
The 1st semester of my 3rd year. I 'm gonna buck up from now on.

Distance means......an amount of space between two things or people.
I couldn't cross it....to meet you now.
Sometimes, distance makes the heart. but sometimes, it doesn't.
so near, yet so far.
No matter what happened, just try to move forward. perhaps alone is not that bad?

All right,due to the super duper hot weather recently, felt very very thirsty so I had cooked chrysanthemum tea. quite tasty yeah <

 

( purposely put a flower there hahaha ;)

Okay la. let 's stop here and continue to read my story book.bye

( Very happy arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh :DDD)

你比从前快乐

听了他们的故事,心愣了一阵.
我知道,我们都一样...我们面对的事都一样,只不过,我没那么勇敢.
我只会躲起来,等我好了,再出现在大家都面前.

我没办法装作不在乎.所以避而不见.
我没办法逃避,所以我面对了.

这就是事实.



还是家里温暖,只是少了一些...和多了些回忆.

monday blue huh

busy like hell lately.

planned to back melaka on sunday. at the end i backed today with daddy. woke up early in the morning and reached melaka at 7am! so......can't you guess what time I woke up this morning ah?! TT I won't grumble so much because when i woke up, i saw a glass of milo which was brew by my dad. sweet to the max! I 'm a happiness person muahahaha<

After came back, i had spent half day to study for the coming exam in library today. tired to the max!
I went there alone after class for a whole afternoon. came back around 5pm then took a nap for 1 hour. After woke up, i cooked chicken rice with lady's finger and lettuce as my dinner. Then 8pm, went library again with eddy until 11++pm. hardworking right?! I had found the familiar study mood through library again. motivation is getting stronger . By the way, i had deactivated my facebook account yesterday since i don't want to spend so much time for that.feel like wasted a lot of precious time which i can do many meaningful things. for example, study, study and study. lol i 'm gonna become a bookworm. good sign is it?! ;)

See! so cute  :D
but I 'm the one without specs lar
Let 's study !

good night, my world.