why so blue?

本应该是很愉快的庆祝仪式。
只知道，我笑得好累，笑得好不自在。
啊自尊心在作祟你知道我自尊心很强的对吗？
不要一直往我不好的地方踹一脚过来，好吗？
我明明不想面对的。
我明明很讨厌别人这样对我的。
而我却还要伪装自己，死都要勉强挤出一个微笑来浅浅带过那些话。
结果回到家，我把自己累得快哭出来了。

我希望那些喜欢泼冷水的人，离我远远的。
每天回家对着四面墙，发呆

又是一个sem一度的低潮期....


我的天空比蓝天还蓝啊...................

Family trip

I was so lazy to update my blog recently.
I 'm not so busy.but just got back from jb this afternoon.
once in a while, I feel that my life without any motivation.
there are always a reason made me spring up this kind of bad feeling.you know,I know.
the most important thing to me is about my school work,result..I do really care about it .
Although I have passed all subjects on the previous semester but my gpa being dropped.
I was sad, I 'm still feeling sad now.
well,that was a truth. what I need to do now is just confronting the truth.
no worries. I 'll definitely accept it .
Btw , I found that I 'm always become emo on the 1st week of every semester begin .
why why why?! I can 't figure out the reason.

All right , let 's write something happened during my semester break.
A trip to Yogyakarta or Jogjakarta, Indonesia with my beloved family.
visited a lot of historical site with historical value such as sultan palace, Prambanan Temple, Mount Merapi,Borobudur Temple, Taman Sarim ,Malioboro and so on.




The 1st day we went to Prambanan Temple with 47 meters tall and was made by hand about 1100 the previous years.



The weather was damn hot as I could shoot a lot of photos with good lighting.








The next 1 is Borobudur Temple which was the biggest Buddhist temple in the world.




with mummy.



The historical site really awesome with thousand years history . It built in 9th century .







Mount Merapi .



with daddy.



The food over there also tasty enough.



Water Castle.



Indian Ocean.The wind and wave are damn huge over there .You really can 't imagine how huge there are.




Drove this over there .It was damn fun!!!



hahaaaaa



Last day in Malioboro. this otak freaking tasty!!!!



Outside the hotel.

Ending.

18 oct

im sick.sigh!
running nose, sore throat and keep coughing.
i feel so weak now..but i still have to attend the class later.
im really really freaking tired..




And I hate last night .

my dearest bff

Today, i 'm quite happy u know......!
received my bff 's message via facebook inbox.
actually we seldom contact recently.
However, i know that she is always my best friend.and I know her like the back of my hands.
in case we did not meet each other in ages.she is still in my heart and I know I 'll stay as long as she need me.
actually this happened before I tagged her in 1 of my post.which is a notes its talk about friendship.something like for the old friend and so on.
after that she sent me and told me that I made her feel like wanna cry..
she said... 'by seeing those albums that u continue updating.i know u are fine far there although we r busy in different thing ,running with different lifestyle .' and a lot..
i also feel touching when I saw her message.



we are the bff forever okay.............
take care my dear.!!! :)
we are going to have a gathering after two months later..
waiting of 1 of my dear come back from Aus .so, see u soon !
love you always...

07/10

well,i 'm gonna abandon my blog recently..
im busy for drama,webcam,yamcha and family gathering .
but it's really bored for me.as u know that im an outgoing ppl indeed.
however, im so obedient.stay at home everyday!
Actually the main reason is ....all my friends busying for their assignments ,exam or wat!!
that ' s why I feel so so so ....lonely at home..even i stay at home.
home alone everyday.only after around 6pm,my dad and mum back from work, that is just a family that I can feel it.after my sis went to japan.my family only left 4 person - parents ,bro and me in malaysia, at home. my bro going out everyday. every afternoon, even night. Thus, parents always scold him. The same thing happened in my family at least more than 100 times ! Seriously, it made me feel like not at home better than stay at home. Actually daddy mummy is always for our own goods, but children hardly to realize. especially teenagers. they only thought friends are the most precious thing for them. they wont know,how good daddy mummy treat us. don't even say appreciate .they won't . that 's why I feel tired when I stay at home. sometimes I hope I can just close my eyes, ignore these problems...can I ?

LOL,holidays should be happy right?!
let 's blog some interesting stuff here.
received my birthday present from japan on last week .it 's so cool!
it 's a kago bag and clothes.my fav kago bag ,finally got it !:D
i 'd like to say.....
in this world,only my sis know me well ,know what I want deeply always!!thanks ,muacksss :)


freaking excited when I take apart the parcel.hahaa
And 1 more thing is, im going to indonesia next monday :)
all right, I like to seeing this world. travelling is the best way to relax and have a deep breath!


Bon voyage ~